He really has taken it hard... He feels bad because, like I said, even though these are his first rats he's had two die in a short time.
The vet called back and he said there was little need for a histology... The autopsy was pretty conclusive. Brain abcess, caused by a congenital heart defect. Stenosis was one of the words I heard, I didn't ask to repeat it because basically what he was telling me was that there was nothing to prevent her from getting it and nothing I could do to sheild the others. If it hadn't been the abcess eventually it would have been her heart. But she appeared and acted normal... And she was such a big girl! :/ *sigh* That makes me sad... there was actually NOTHING to be done. If she had acted like she was sick, could have told me she had a head ache or something, then maybe... But she can't tell me. It ticks me off slightly too! Normally, you hear "there was nothing you could have done" and you take it because as far as you know, they're right, and when you hear it and it's FOR REAL then it really stinks big time! How useless can you feel after realizing that it's really true? Absolutely nothing, simply a waiting game. Then like a lot of you said... "You were lucky you were home with her" is what he said, and I know a few others have said. How flippin' true! When it could have been any time... We sleep, we go out... We aren't always in the same room as them. I can't be with them 24/7, even though I am with them A LOT, it's not constant. So to be with her when she went, that was good, that was right... And the most I could have done.
And breeders! Congenital... she was born with it. It's genetic. Someone had to have bred this baby, and that means there are others, her siblings, who may go the same way as her. A little responsibility on a few people's parts could have spared her, and then I think about Nina and it's the same, ignorance basically caused their horrible untimely deaths.
I'm sorry I'm rambling, but I think it's now hitting me. How royally unfair and cruel. She was never anything but a sweetheart and a love. I'm sorry. I need to go cuddle something.