Just heartbroken, can't stop crying-They're gone :(

[chicky82]

Well, it looks like the end of the road for my guys :cry3: my boys Coal and Chimo are just past 2 1/2 years old and I have to make the decision for them. Chimo developed a large tumor that nothing can be done for and Coal has pt :sad3:
I've mostly decided to help them pass this coming Saturday unless they pass before then which in my past history with rats, that hasn't happened. I want to see if it can be done Saturday because I want my bf to be with me during.
This is really hard to do because Chimo looks rough but still has some life and Coal doesn't look rough but...
I've been crying off and on this whole past week and I can barely see the screen as I type and I haven't been able to eat anything today :cry:
I think if they were younger, I might try enormous efforts, but even if anything could be done, I couldn't afford it and my bf is unwilling to go though that again (we had a girl who didn't survive a tumor removal and he saw how hard it was for me)
After it's over, I'll post my tribute to my boys but it may take a few days, for now here are some pics of my sweeties

Baby Chimo

Baby Coal

Chimo on top and Coal in the cage

I'm so sorry

 

[Zooy]

Hugs!
I'm so sorry you've had to make this difficult decision

 

[jorats]

I remember when you got those boys... it's been such a long good life for them but it doesn't make it any easier when it's time to let go.
I'm so sorry Chicky... :hugs:

 

[sausage4ever]

So sorry...:hugs:

 

[Arlene]

I'm sorry about your boys, but I am sure they will appreciate each other's company on their journey to the other side. My heart aches for you! Give them a kiss for me!

 

[mamarat]

You gave them a good long life. I know it's a hard decision. I'm so sorry. :hugs:

 

[raindrop]

I am so sorry to hear you have to make that decision, Chicky. They will be joining their three sisters who we had PTS together on June 29th. Talia had already had one tumor removed on Oct 15/08 and another one came and grew very big. Chrissy had a tooth issue and a very infected abscess on the side of her cheek that wouldn't heal. She was losing weight terribly. Hallie had a skin problem that we had tried to heal up and we made the decision for her to join her sisters as we thought she would be very lonely without the other two.
It is a hard decision to make but please remember that they have lived a good life with you and will be contining a good life with their sisters. Take Care.

Ann

 

[Maple]

Try not to look at whats to come, but rather what has been. Take a look at every single day in the last 2.5 years of your life and smile. Your ratties will love you for it. :heart: And remember, for ever 1 that leaves us, there are 10 more that need good homes
Sorry your sad.

 

[Dahlas]

I am very sorry....

 

[Melissa's ZOO]

I am so very sorry. :sad3:

 

[Moon]

I'm so sorry.... it feels like you have had those boys forever.

 

[Petitepuppet]

So sorry :cry3: .

Just think of all the good times.

 

[chicky82]

Thank you everyone Raindrop, I didn't know your girls have passed, I'm sorry.
Unfortunately, they don't do pts' on Saturday so I'm going to have to do it on my own without my bf, I'm thinking Wednesday (if Coal doesn't leave me before then) because I have appointments on Thursday and Friday so maybe the appointments can keep me busy enough until the pain lessens. I'll keep posted :cry:
Thank you again :heart:

 

[Godmother]

I'm so sorry. It is never easy, especially after you have had them with you so long.
We'll all be thinking of you.

 

[eagle]

I am so sorry you are going through this. It is heartbreaking. :hugs:

 

[Big Ears]

As :heart:breaking as it is, feel relieved and proud for making the right decision, even though it is a hard one, to not keep them in pain. You deserve a great big :hugs:.

 

[Fidget]

They don't read a calendar. They don't care if they live 2 1/2 or 3 years. They only know if they enjoy each day they wake up. Make every day as wonderful for them as you can, and let then go when you feel you can't, and passing them onto someone else is not the best option for them.
There's nothing wrong with doing everything you can to extend their lives by every day possible and taking care of their elderly needs. And there's nothing wrong with ending their days when you can't fix it and there is nothing left for them but decline & disability. 2 different schools of thought, but if your love and their needs are the foremost considerations then it's different paths to the same goal. The most good life you can give them.
I sometimes wonder if I should have helped some back-end incapacited kids go instead of doing for them while they missed out on so much....But I have a girl now (Fidget) who can't climb with the ohers, her life is ground-floor but she is so happy and so full of joy in life as long as she has cuddle-company....

I think it's always going to be an individual decision. Based on the individual kid's problems, abilites and the attitude they show every day under those circumstances. Bottom line is whether you are doing it for you or for them I guess.

 

[chicky82]

I had booked them for tomorrow but they both decided to leave me today :cry3: This morning, I gave them some ensure and late this afternoon, I went to check on them and they were curled up together, looking like they were sleeping but they both were gone :cry:
I'm glad they were together at the end, I guess their little bodies just gave up. I've never had rats go both together with me at home, it's a little comforting that they left me from home.
I went for a walk to meet my mom after work while my dad moved out the cage and their stuff, I'm keeping it in the basement for now.

I'm so sorry my sweet Coal and Chimo, I'll never forget you and love you forever :roseopen: :angel2: :angel2:

 

[mamarat]

I am so sorry. :hugs:

 

[arresai]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Some people just don't understand how you feel, I'm glad you have the peeps here on this forum who do.