I just lost my angel, Jackie

[Ratticus]

She just passed over in my arms, her breathing suddenly ragged and very wet, just a few minutes ago. I am SO heartbroken and miss her so much. I had so much hope yesterday when she picked right up with the dexamethesone; I thought for sure she'd pull through. This morning she was lethargic and more limp again, and leaning to the right. She didn't pick up all day. I cuddled her a lot and told her how much I love her. I stepped out to the store to pick up a few things, got back, and went to see her...and she was in distress. She passed in my arms; I just held her gently and told her it was okay to go.

As much as this hurts, I saw that she was having trouble eating today and I think she was really frustrated and unhappy being in a body that would no longer work for her. As much as I ache that she's gone home, I will respect her decision to leave because, clearly, she must have known that her body was not going to allow her to get better and she couldn't just keep going on like that.

I love you Jackie; my beautiful Jacqueline...Godspeed and I'll see you in Spirit. :heart:

 

[MissGuardian]

I´m so sorry :sad3: :hugs:

 

[Dahlas]

Oh I am very sorry.

 

[smmmiley]

As much as this hurts, I saw that she was having trouble eating today and I think she was really frustrated and unhappy being in a body that would no longer work for her. As much as I ache that she's gone home, I will respect her decision to leave because, clearly, she must have known that her body was not going to allow her to get better and she couldn't just keep going on like that.

I love you Jackie; my beautiful Jacqueline...Godspeed and I'll see you in Spirit. :heart:

Very well described... : hugs: Sorry for your loss, Ratticus.

 

[Godmother]

I'm so sorry.

 

[handmeafish]

I'm so sorry.
Play hard at the bridge little one.

 

[mamarat]

I'm so sorry. RIP little sweetie.

 

[Roo]

:sad3: :hugs:

 

[momofmany]

So sorry for you loss! :hugs: I believe the last thing she felt was your love... :heart:

 

[jorats]

I'm so sorry Carol... If it's any comfort, the dex gave your sweetie an easier passing.

 

[Ratticus]

Thank you, everyone. Several hours later, it still feels numb and unreal; I keep looking for her in all the familiar places; in the cage where she lived with her sister Squeaks (whom I'm cuddling a lot, as she's an 'only' rat now); in all the places where Jackie played, sat, touched. It's as if touching these spots can somehow connect me to her, or turn me back in time...

It's so hard to lose them. It takes time to get over this. The only thing that is giving me strength is knowing that she is much happier now, in spirit, without a body that had become so ill that it had imprisoned her. I'll always remember her as the little girl who loved to play, jump, climb, her eyes wide and sparking: she has returned to that youthfulness now. Perhaps, if she chooses (and if I may be so blessed) she'll return to me in a new body one day.

I love you, Jacqueline Rattie; I always will; we'll alway be bound by our hearts, forever. Kisses and hugs, honey. :heart:

 

[Rachael]

I'm so sorry. It's so hard.